Is that what it is?

A hole?

A stupid void, an annoying distance. Is that what it is? I don't understand. I feel blank, and hopeless. Confused, and dejected. Sad and shrugged off. Upset and useless. My only salvation to these crashing feelings, my other half.

He shuts out all this, whenever I speak to him, or even think about him. Makes me throw all these feelings away, distracts me from the truth. I know, being distracted from the truth, isn't quite the proper solution. Well, it's a close second. Until I learn to accept facts, he is and always will be. My salvation, my everything. Cheesy, but true. :) Without him.. I don't even want to think about the consequences. It's more than unbearable. ARGH.

On a LIGHTER note, fame up's article in the star came out yesterday. Brought back memories of Phantom, and the good old times. I miss Fame Up, and the people of fame up. The experience was overwhelming, and just amazing. The spectacular people I've met, the fantabulous people who made everything possible. I love ALL of you, You will all remain tatoo'ed on my heart, till the end of time. :)

"The world behind my wall. Isn't as beautiful as it should be."